Blind Sided

Life just totally completely
blind sided me.

I was looking one way and
complaining about one thing
and the real problem surfaced
a week ago last sunday

OMG

I was looking the other way because this
would never be a possibility in
my life

but now that the unthinkable happened
will it happen again???

I want to run so bad
my safe lil world has crashed
in on me

Where do I go from here
I ve been a roller coster of emotions
this last week.

I am trying to decide
Stay or Go

If it happened this time it
technically for the second time
it could happen again right.

how can I trust
when it wasnt even supose to happen
this time

the promise was made lil over 5 yrs ago
that it wouldnt happen again

But it did

My world is crushed,

my heart is broke,

Where do I go from???

Hold on for on more day.